I'm 60 years old.  It has it's advantages and its disadvantages.  I had breakfast out today and I got a senior discount.  The disadvantage is they didn't card me so I must look over 60!

By this stage in my life I should have life figured out.  More importantly I should have God figured out but he just won't sit still long enough for that to happen.  Even if he did stay still my senior brain wouldn't know what to do!

This is not a whine session (and I don't mean the kind you drink).  Here comes the "but."  But I've had so much life garbage dumped on me and often wondered, "What is the Big Guy doing?  Where is He?"  God just hasn't performed the way I expected and desired.  The only thing I can expect is that He ends up surprising me, some good but I tend to only see the bad.

I'm no surprise to God.  He know I mess up at times and even want to fire him!  The great thing is that he doesn't walk away when I hand him garbage.  He patiently waits for me to come around again and offer his grace.

I read this from "Ragamuffin" the other day:

This is the victorious limp often lived by this writer. At different times on the journey I have tried to fill the emptiness that frequently comes with God’s presence through a variety of substitutes—writing, preaching, traveling, television, movies, ice cream, shallow relationships, sports, music, daydreaming, alcohol, etc. As Annie Dillard says, “There is always an enormous temptation to diddle around making itsy-bitsy friends and meals and journeys for itsy-bitsy years on end.” Along the way I opted for slavery and lost the desire for freedom. I loved my captivity and imprisoned myself in the desire for things I hated. I hardened my heart against true love. I abandoned prayer and took flight from the simple sacredness of my life. On some given day when grace overtook me and I returned to prayer, I half-expected Jesus to ask, “Who dat?” None of my failures in faithfulness have proved terminal. Again and again radical grace has gripped me in the depths of my being, brought me to accept ownership of my infidelities, and led me back to the fifth step of the AA program: “Acknowledge to God, another human being, and myself the exact nature of my wrongdoing.”

Manning, Brennan (2008-08-19). The Ragamuffin Gospel: Good News for the Bedraggled, Beat-Up, and Burnt Out (pp. 186-187). The Doubleday Religious Publishing Group. Kindle Edition.

Thank you Jesus!